trying to fit-in is miserable and tiring. trying to adapt is challenging. i’m fine in my room. put your message outside my door, i’ll reach them very soon.

Bilur (Welts)

Biru, ungu, hitam. Tak langsung selalu terkena. Apakah sakit? Tidak tahu. Aku sudah kebal. Biru, ungu, hitam. Adalah seorang kambing hitam. Apakah sakit? Tidak tahu. Itu sudah biasa. Biru, ungu, hitam. Mengerti alasan asalnya itu semua. Apakah sakit? Tidak tahu. Ini hanya beberapa bilur. Mungkin nanti akan hilang dengan sendirinya. Blue, purple, black. It often […]


I chatted with my friend randomly (2018) about how bare minimum (kindness) was a bare minimum that human need to have and do (including ; respecting each other & small gesture). Couldn’t just adore people because of bare minimum because it could be “fake” kindness (just to impress) -as the bare minimum need to be […]


i used to… but now i haven’t… no reason, just experienced. world is cruel, but fair.


hello friends, i’m so so sorry im not as active as before. it’s because i have writer’s block and i kept wondering if i can really write things. so, i think i’ll take a break for some times, but you still can catch me writing random things on my twitter pages. i am really sorry, […]


being nice is easy. being kind is hard. nice can be just fakeness, but, you can’t fake kindness.

problem solving

since i was young, they taught me how to solve problem that i’d never had, how to not make another new problem, or how to make things right, perfecly. so i tried to change anything, to become my way. and they tried to change me, to become right way. but, they never taught me to […]


oh no. don’t get me wrong. i’m not mad for the fakeness you presented to other. i’m mad at the fakeness you created in front of me. i don’t care what you did outside, but didn’t you realize i could see what’s inside?